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In God’s Time…

The message there in...

The message there in…

In God’s time, I will find
The road that leads to you
Further you will be mine
For now let this be due

In God’s time, embrace we will
Your smile will I behold
The warm eyes that once thrilled
My heart as if to gold

In God’s time, aching shall pass
Longing, thirsting, wanting, will vanish
Life’s burdens, time’s fulfillment will harass
Securing life’s moments as if to cherish

In God’s time, I believe your heart will break
Opening a fresh page for me you’ll leave space
In your time, my pursuit cannot shake
You choose to linger, to hesitate, you pace

In God’s time redemption will nigh
For those who surrender to his clock
For all who bend low, while Him place high
In God’s time they’ll behold The Rock

In God’s time, Eternity will be
Beginning in me, delaying in you
Never too late, never too early
God’s time incomparable – a pure virtue

God’s time is perfect, in it I rest
His time is accurate, His clock is steady
He needs no watch to maintain His best
For God’s time, I seek to-day-be ready

In God’s time….Eternally!

40 Lessons I learned during this Lenten Season

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On my way to work in March 2013. Breath-taking!

What is a learned-lesson if not shared?  Life is a teacher to the attentive, a guide to the seeker, a light to the wanderer, and an artist to the gazer.  My Lenten Journey was one which required that I pay close attention to the instructions which the true source of Life, who is Life Himself was giving.   In many ways, lessons came to me, some I grasped in an instant, and others undoubtedly evaded, and or bamboozled me.
It would be remise of me not to share 40 of these with you!  Forty, being complementary to the life-span of any Lenten Season, but certainly this does not exhaust the many simple things I am taking away from the season.   Hope you can share in them, and or share yours with me.

1.    Fasting is not impossible – employ it frequently
2.    Discipline is characteristic of a Disciple, they are interconnected and inseparable
3.    Forgive like a fool, for it is there that you will gain true freedom and wisdom
4.    Never stop praying for Wisdom (Wisdom chapter 9 – Pray it as often as you can)
5.    Wisdom is when God allows us to see through His Holy eyes
6.    Forty days are really short, don’t waste a single minute therein
7.    Speak the word with passion, but live it with fearless drive
8.    Ask for forgiveness like a child, and apologize like you’re going to die, it frees you
9.    Sing as if the entire world is within the sound of your voice, – so sing unreservedly
10.    Silence is loud, so speak not, just let it play
11.    Faith is worth having, – outside of it, you have nothing
12.    Let your music speak your language of life
13.    Give from your heart, – from there its hurt will reveal its authenticity
14.    Lent is never easy, you will be tested too
15.    Do the unpopular, let the world stand stunned, while God’s peace enfolds you    eternally
16.    The community of believers is your life-blood, don’t stray from it
17.    Sometimes your world will get silent; Listen, for God is speaking therein, get that word
18.    The Holy Spirit is your friend – Befriend Her
19.    Un-forgiveness is enemy to Holy Spirit Power; the adverse is High Class Power!
20.    Upon seeing the light of day, the first – Five are the most crucial – Spend it with God
21.    God wants to have a Heart-Stumping, and mountain Moving Relationship with me
22.    Confession – true contrition is sweet!
23.    Work is important, but Never more than your life and faith
24.    Theology is beckoning at my intellect – “try me, try me soon”
25.    Faith, Food, the Faithful and Fitness are all connected;They complement each other
26.    The Holy Spirit makes you bold beyond your physical and mental limitations
27.    To yield to God is to trust like a child in its mother’s loving arms
28.    When God has a plan, Nothing can contend! – In the final analysis He gets His Way!
29.    Speaking God’s word reaches the ear; Prayerfully singing doubles the effect, straight to the heart
30.    The Spirit of God takes different paths to make us holy, but there are similarities
31.    It is Wise for one to renew his or her Confirmation – Fresh outpouring of the Holy Spirit
32.    Simplicity is totally freeing and beautiful
33.    Humility, humility, humility, – three very powerful words for the Christian
34.    Death is an ever shadow, but God is forever real Light
35.    Electing a Pope is major, even better, it is a Sacred Undertaking, not merely human
36.    Jesus is still in the Prayer Answering Business – His time is different from mines
37.    Indifference is a thief of humility, simplicity and impartiality; Even, it fears vulnerability
38.    The Same Christ, who was resurrected, is the same Christ who lives in me – Wow!
39.    Pray as if God is deaf; ask, seek, and knock – and trustfully wait, He will answer
40.    Our purpose for living should be to See Jesus Face to Face with Joy in the end

Dear friend, knowing that we can never learn all the lessons life has to give to us; we must keep learning, implementing and growing as we age.  Hopefully, you can relate to some if not all of these lessons.  Care to share some of your own lessons learned over-time?  God bless.

I Consider Everything as Loss!

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Inspired by St. Paul’s words, in the book of Philippians chapter 3 verse 8:   “More than that, I even consider everything as a loss because of the supreme good of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have accepted the loss of all things and I consider them so much rubbish, that I may gain Christ” – (The New American Bible), I embrace the challenge of subtraction. 

So often, we seek constant additions, as much as a number of us hate mathematics.  WE seek to add to our finances, using the expression of “the more the merrier.”  Many seek to add to their family through procreation as is commanded by God’s words, and certainly there is nothing wrong with that once it is done in the proper relationship or sacrament of marriage.   
Today, our generation constantly seeks to increase the many contact lists on facebook and other social media, almost seeking a sense of popularity.  As if numbers, additions and multiplications are supposed to be the strength of our existence – one might think we are saying that, without having a lot, we have nothing.  

Yet, whoever said that more is always more?  More is sometimes worst.  The more people, the more chaos, the more mouths to feed, the more resources necessary, the more money the more worry, the more people in our lives, the more demanded, and or expected of us.   And the list can go on and on…

In truth, we all need people in our lives, but sometimes we lose people through falter, through broken relationships, stupidity, a lack of humility to apologize for hurts caused, through migration, or others just walk away without any solid reasoning.  Whatever the case, there is a loss.  

There is no doubt, that loss in and of itself is hurtful, it is painful, and it is often heartbreaking.  Yet, it is loss that causes us to search our deepest recesses to find that which is within us for survival.  It is loss, which breeds creation and creativity.  For failure to create new things is to die.  Thus, today, I seek to embrace the losses of my life.  The loss of seasonal people, loss of loved ones through the thief called death, the loss of money, the loss of good grades, friendship opportunities, and just the loss of even time which can never be gotten again.

This loss, I embrace, for while I hold the emptiness they created through the newly formed vacuum, I hang on tightly to God’s unchanging hands.  I embrace the loss because, it enables me to give it all, in a form of surrender to the ultimate authority of my life, – God himself.  The loss allows me to forget about myself, and concentrate on the healer of the hurts, the provider of the need, the fulfillment of the emptiness and the completion of the incomplete me.   

Today, I count it all as loss, for the Glory of God.  For the less time with that which I no longer have, the more time to discover and spend with HIM who is my ALL.  Today, one must remind themselves that no human person can fulfill us – but God who is our completion.  Psalm 63 says it best:  “Oh God, My soul longs for you, like a dry and desert land where there’s no water….”
Even deeper, the Lenten Season creates the perfect opportunity for me to Embrace the nothing, the empty, the loss and the void, while letting go of consumerism, and all its allies.  God is great and His Grace is Sufficient. – All I need to do is Believe, Hold On to HIM and Trust!  

By the way, the following link struck me:     http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=IkR3c0uuYIQ#!

JOURNEY into the UNKNOWN

For an entire week, I thought, prayed, cried sometimes, and just couldn’t bring myself to write anything down.  As to the reasons?  There must be some, but at this moment I think they are too numerous to mention.  So, to sum them all up, I will say that I have had a hard week. Whoever said that because it is Lent, things will flow smoothly?  

To sit in the unknown is like jumping off a boat in the middle of no where unable to swim for the life of you.  One thing  that stands is “HOPE.”  The hope that someone will see you, hear your fading voice, and find you.  Your hope is that someone will pick you up.  The unknown happens for all of us at different points in our lives.  Today, I need a voice so badly, I need an arrow, a road map, an answer, I need direction.  Interestingly, today’s http://www.bustedhalo.com’s prompt is for me to “pray for discernment.”  Well, I thought that was what I was praying for all along?  It seems like I should be praying some more?

As a new graduate with a few months to “SEEK,” I have found many a hard day.  The woman in me is seeking direct answers.  She wants to know where to go, when to go, what to do, where to do it / them, and if she is supposed to do whatever, then she also needs the tools.  So, is that what a JOURNEY all about?  Maybe I need to explore a bit more what this whole word JOURNEY really means?  It certainly sounds like a task, a hard road.  

When I think of JOURNEY, I envision this elder man in Cotten Hill (where I grew up), passing with his traditional heavy sak (kohtah) on his back, going up to his garden in the morning, and then later in the evening with it well packed with produce from his day.  I envision him bent underneath its pressing load.  Still he held on to his cutlass (matchette), and returned the next day, braving the big hills up and down. Mr. Arthur did for years upon years.  

There must have been pain involved, you know — sweat, big wet beads of sweat, some tears may have mingled in it when he pondered on his needs, worries, concerns, and maybe just on God’s awesome beauty up in the hills which might have overwhelmed him.  Still he worked hard, he pressed on, even in his old age.  Then I think about the many rainy and windy days that Mr. Arthur endured up there in Bock.  Though he might have had a cool shed there, he must have had to make his way through many a huge muddy patches, maybe he crossed many rapidly flowing dirty ravines and rivers during his frequent trips on stormy days — still he returned to his farm the next day.  And oh, no telling, with Kohtah / sak on back, Mr. Arthur must have fallen several times; still he got up, brushed off what remains of his fall that he could and continued on his way.  Just thinking about this now I wonder, jee what was this man made of?  

Could this contain the elements, and or characteristics of a journey?  If so, well I am convinced this journey thing is no joke, still it could be possible.  So what does it all mean to Journey into the Unknown?  Could it be something like this? Or is the journey, nice and rosey, with lots of smiles, happy cheer even with a heavy heart?  Is the journey one filled with many “fans” hugging, kissing and reminding me that I am doing well?  Is the journey one where I never cry, never long to be held, hugged, told and reassured that I am loved?  What is this journey?  Is it one where I know exactly what I am going to do within the next few months, with clear signs, exact “change” and can put my feet up and snooze because it is all taken care of?  WHAT IS IT? 

This online dictionary suggests that JOURNEY is: “… travelling from one place to another, usually taking a long time. A trip.”  But, I prefer the following definition: A Journey is a “passage or progress from one stage to another.”  That is where I am, and God does it hurt. It leaves me in limbo, as if that is how it feels. It makes me wonder why at this point I am still unsure of where to turn, what to do, where to go and what is out there for me?  And oh, the job market that I search is totally daunting, but I am guessing it is all part of the journey and the discerning.  God knows what is “NEXT” for the traveller, what is in store of the seeker, and what is in progress for the wanderer. He knows. Ofcourse that is my blind faith speaking. That is all I have to hold on to. FAITH — it will work!

Essentially, all I can do is what His words ask me to: Ask, Seek, Knock as best I can, and can I be honest?  I feel like He is telling me I am not asking enough, or maybe I am not asking properly?  That too is frustrating. Still I will keep asking, because that is what I can do.  

To the omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent I offer my ignorance, blindness, needs and desires. HE KNOWS and has conquered the JOURNEY before!  

Do you feel like this sometimes?  Tell me how you cope, please because I could do with some motivation today. 

God bless. 

MA#2 – God took me through!

Over the past weekend God reminded me that He cares, He loves and He is real.
Amidst grace, darkness tried to prevail, faith conquered, and hope within was restored.
Light met and destroyed darkness, light shone brightly, and though tears were shed in
more ways than one, hearts felt light again, and longs for more of God.

“As the deer panteth for the water so my soul longeth after Thee…” has become alive again. Worship came when healing began, and healing came when worship took over.

I don’t know about tomorrow, but I know who holds it. To HIM Entrusted!
This blog post

Hedge Clippings – Blog.

by someone (Jeff Heglen) who visited MA#2 captures the sentiments of many of us who spent
last weekend in the same place. Feel free to read it.
God bless.

Thank you Jeff Hedglen for sharing!

Service & Sacrifice

One week ago today, so much seemed to have been different within me. Emotionally and spiritually I felt drained, frustrated and lost. Today, I look back and am Wowed at the changes that have occured. Simple things make big impacts sometimes, but most of all, one’s mindset sets the path to success or failure. My mindset was pulling me down the drain, but God always has better plans, and word them He does in his own styles and times.

Today, I spent most of it doing things in preparation for the upcoming Midwestern Awakening Retreat, and to say that I feel that I have accomplished much would be an understatement. I have accomplished much, though there are still some things to get done.

Along with that, I challenged myself and made a Sweet Potato Pudding as I always wanted to. And though some of the ingredients were not exactly what I desired to work with, I pulled it through reasonably well from all telling. :)
It gave me such joy just to first do it, and then watch others have it with pleasure. The little things in life which make a big difference quite often. Well, so much for food.

So, what’s in all this? Two words, Service and Sacrifice. Both were very much in play, and complement this Lenten season and the journey on which I have embarked; that of spiritual renaissance and metanoia. It is really a continuation, rather than a new venture; still it feels so new. There is a certain peace witihin my spirit that I feel today. There are multiple factors which have contributed to this peace, but certainly a big contributor is my latest prayer life. Not that I didn’t pray before, now it is more focused, intense, structured and factored into my daily living. I feel like I pray now with more purpose, you know like I did maybe 4 years ago. I pray that I will continue on this journey with dedication and growth.

May I continue to seek ways to serve God through others, while he blesses the sacrifices that I make. A A, in case you are wondering, I got some disappointing news today too, but I told myself to stay positive. So, here I am.
I pray you had a good day, and wish you well.
Feel free to share your thoughts with me. Mine seem rather random, but I am just writing from the heart at this moment.

Be blessed today and always.
In Christ,
Ceez

Attitudes & Others – both matter

It’s Tuesday, and somehow it was a busy but good one. The weather here didn’t seem too encouraging in the earlier part of the day, but I told myself it is still a lovely day. Later on, while running one of my required errands, I was elated to see the sun rays peeking through the building. That lifted an already positive mood and spirit, and I was thrilled to walk outside. The sun seemed to have been out in all of its glory.
My meditation was about living for the benefit of others, sort of forgetting myself, needs and desires and focus on that of others. Though at some points my own concerns hit me, I didn’t dwell on them. Yay to that!!! It always seems better to help others, and to make them happy in any case.

A busy but productive day – was today. Within me meanwhile, was a strong spiritual peace, one that I clung to. Nothing phased it, nothing. Interestingly one of the short conversations I shared with someone today captured the need to choose to be in control of my mental state / attitude. He was sharing how he makes big efforts to stay positive in the midst of things and situations which challenge his equilibrium. That was right up my emotional pathway, because it has been the thing at the forefront of my mind lately more than ever. Was that some co-incidence? I say No. I think it was divine within its own occurrence.

Then tonight, another conversation with a friend reaffirmed the need for us to reach out to others as I alluded to above. I think there is beauty in simple things, and so when someone says to me that they are going to visit a sick person, or a friend who has gone into “hiding” it warms my heart. It calls me to evaluate my own giving, and makes me see that indeed life is about others, not so much about ourselves, though we all have needs and desires.
So, tonight, since I have spent some time at the wellness center, building some healthy chemical reactions within my own psyche, I feel wonderful, and ready to get tonight’s chores on stream. Laundry, art, reading and prayer are top on the list. lol. I sound like a workaholic eh.

Anyway, I hope your day was wonderful, and if it wasn’t I urge you to look ahead at the morning, for Joy cometh in that time. Let us anticipate another GREAT DAY in CHRIST JESUS. I lay my burdens down, and I embrace the cross of Christ in a spirit of gratitude and victory.
God Bless y’all.