Sometimes in life we forget! Other times we make every effort not to.
There are those moments when we just seek to find the deeper person in us.
We connect with us more than ever before, and because we do, it constructs
a certain kind of “Change” that is almost inexplicable. This change becomes
so intertwined within us, we must then devise a way to unravel what it all means.
In the process of unraveling we continue the “change-process” to points likely
to be mis-overstood by our circles. Don’t you feel mis-overstood sometimes too?
Today, I know I’ve been changed. What has contributed to this internal metamorphosis?
Conclusively I would say, a combination of matters all embraced each other, some
with my permissions, others without my knowledge, and they brought a deep change of heart,
mind, character and personality.
Sometimes, change is for the worst, other times it is for the better, and still it should be
for the best. Currently, mine is for “what-ever.” This simply means, that I am letting it be what it is,
I am learning to watch it, feel it happen, observe its power within me, and allow it to take
its path. Wherever it leads, whatever it deprives me of, whatever it brings to me,
or endows me with,it is all for my providence I’m sure. For you see, that “What-ever” is constructed by faith.
Lately, I remind myself, “Ceez, walk by faith and not by sight” – thus my change is for “Whatever!”
You see I have not felt this way in a long time. The fact is; this “Whatever” breeds a certain kind of beautiful mystery. Lately, I am learning to feel differently, to behave with more coding, and to restructure my mystery. Once I was mysterious, I was quite careful, and didn’t lose composure. Not that it is wrong to lose composure sometimes – for who doesn’t?
It is just the fact that, composure preserves mystery, and mystery multiplies faith’s wings. A part of me feels like shouting – “I have Changed! – I know I’ve been changed.- I will Never be the Same again.” – Still I will be patient, for change is constant. Besides, I would hate to celebrate too early,
but I appreciate each moment of change that I observe, as directed by faith. Let it all happen!!!
Now, all I do is love, watch, pray, hurt, smile, cry, exercise, dream, write, hope and desire,
all from a healthy avenue (That location where you avoid an “emotional-ground-zero”)!!! – Mysterious me is making a Renaissance!!!