Archive | January 2012

Missing You (Dad)

No words I write can ever say
How much I miss you everyday.
As time goes by, the loneliness grows;
How I miss you, nobody knows!
I think of you in silence,
I often speak your name
But,all I have are memories
And photos in a frame.
No one knows my sorrow,
No one sees my weep
But the love I have for you,
is in my heart to keep.
I’ve never stopped loving you;
I’m sure I never will.
Deep inside my heart,
you are with me still.
Heartaches in this world are many
but mine is worse than any.
My heart still aches as I whisper low,
“I need you and I miss you so.”
The things we feel so deeply,
are often the hardest to say.
But, I just can’t keep quiet anymore,
so I’ll tell you anyway.
There is a place in my heart,
that no one else can fill,
I love you so Dad,
and I always will.

Author Unknown

(R.I.P. MFP – Daddy)

Abyss of Obscurity

Sometimes in life people fade into an abyss of obscurity. This happens by force, or maybe by choice. It is easy to occur. Maybe it is a necessity for the faded in order to be found elsewhere. Probably it is a requirement in order to achieve other goals. Still one’s ability to fade into obscurity may just be due to the fact that anything else would possibly compound a torturous situation.

Then, there is the obscurity which occurs by the ability of others who will not hesitate to quickly throw the obscured to the curb. Yes, that happens too. Sometimes the very people the faded gave most of the self to are the exact ones who will be eager to see them vanish. So want or want not, faded will the obscured be…straight into the hell hole of obscurity like they never existed.

In obscurity, there is a feeling of loss, deep grievance, frustration, and the faded individual is likely to border on a level of depression intermittently. Inspiration dematerializes, sleep depletes, and moods develop a pendulum -like behavior.

In the realm of obscurity, the faded will often be given the ‘third-party’ treatment. After all it seems safer for the illuminated super stars to extend a long handle which warrants no interaction of direct effect. Oh besides, that would make their high elevated self-pride and expected obligations to their secure circles decrease. So no they won’t reach out personally, instead they will watch the obscured dissolve to naught without a single budge. The faded has a choice then, but often feels no sense of courage to even trust, so obscurity may blossom. Does the faded like obscurity? Most likely not! But, often obscurity chooses the faded.

It takes faith, prayer, help, and genuine outreach to snatch the obscured from that sorrowful realm. It demands and requires, understanding hearts, attuned ears which hold no defense, non-judgmental mannerism, shelving of inferences, and an honest direct and personal effort to seek out and salvage the obscured faded soul in a domain of neutrality. If nothing else does, Christianity demands it. But alas! — Obscurity has lately grown long pants, jacket, and tie. The faded is ambushed, and held captive my Sir Obscurity.

Oh Christ, send some maps and GPS to the faded, that from the monstrous hold of deep obscurity, the soul and heart may return. That the faded may find inspiration within its soul, creativity within its veins and newly inspired love within its drum-like organ. Grant the faded the grace to curse the abyss of obscurity away from its soul, into the recesses of no man’s land, dispelling it into its own self, never to return to that human soul. Oh Christ…!

The following song seems very timely for a faded soul… I found it appropriate to share. This is not my own song. I pay all respects to the artists / creators of it. I hope it lifts your soul up if you ever feel like you have faded into a world of obscurity. God bless!–OGN4#!

Awarded – Liebster Style

With gratitude I accept the honor of the Liebster Award. Thank you SomerEmpress for the award, and for reminding me that I am Beloved.
You may read the post and award details here. 🙂 Also, please take some time to read some of SomerEmpress’ wonderful writing at Life As An Art Form. There is always inspiration to be found.

To follow suit, it is with great pleasure that I choose to award a favorite Tweep. The person whom I met, and have since followed on Twitter. Aline Hanle’s tweets over time, have captured my attention, inspired my spirit and encouraged me to keep seeking and harnessing my inner beauty. I have no doubt that her quotes, artistry and kind soul brings life to all her followers. I award The Sacred Sactuary with a double honor of the Liebster Award, because of what it does for me, and also because I would like you, and all my readers to benefit from her kind wisdom.

Inclusively, I would like to recognize someone whom I have just friended on Twitter, and whose blog I have read from time to time. He definitely helps to point me back to God, evaluate my faith, and strengthens me in my resolve to walk upright. Michael Bowes’ Journey of a Pilgrim is a real, humble, God fearing man who continues to seek direction as to what God wants of him. I enjoy reading some of his posts, and kindly award his wonderful efforts with the hope that he will keep blogging and growing.

Failure to recognize the next person / group would be a major oversight. BRBP TV (BE REAL, BE POSITIVE Television) has been a major joy to follow. This blog always takes me right back to my home country. Even more, it takes me to my hometown of Portsmouth. Lynworth (Mytelics) Mitchell is one of the key brains behind it, and he is multi-talented. If you want to know more about the Commonwealth of Dominica, to get a taste of his talents, or maybe you are just curious about what they present, please take some time to check out the BRBP TV’s page. Indeed they deserve this award and recognition. It is such a joy to do this. 🙂

The final award which carries just as much weight goes to a young woman of faith and her team. If you know me, you know faith matters a whole lot to my daily living. Thus, some time ago, I stumbled upon the next blog – Live WTL Ministries, which I choose to award today. Avery is probably not even interested in being awarded due to her modesty, but she deserves to be. What I love about this blog is the faith component, the cool pictures, and Avery’s self decription. She says, “I’m Avery. 15 years old (almost). Sophomore. Catholic. I’m imperfect, flawed, a sinner, and a hypocrite. I don’t have a theology degree, I’m not a nun, and I’ve only gone to Catholic school for a month. But if I know anything, I know that God is the center of my life. And I am desperately in love with Him and His Church. Jesus Christ is my best friend and my savior, and I’m striving to live out my hope in Him one day at a time. I long to be unhindered and authentic. I’m tired of the motions, of feeling like faith is stiff and fake. Because it’s real. It’s SO real. And it’s amazing. I’m trusting, I’m searching, and I’m falling head over heels in love.
God doesn’t call the equipped, He equips the called. And I consider it an incredible blessing to be called to serve Live WTL Ministries.”
This helps me to remember to stay grounded, humble and earthed.

Conclusively, Liebster is a German word that means beloved or favorite. The Liebster Award is an award from fellow bloggers given to up and coming bloggers that have less than 200 followers.

These are requirements that you need to fulfill should you accept this award:

◦Thank your Liebster Blog Award presenter on your blog.
◦Link back to the blogger who awarded you.
◦Give your top 5 picks for the award
◦Inform your top 5 by leaving a comment on their blog.
◦Post the award on your blog.

Congratulations to all the wonderful Bloggers out there who have been contributing to the wealth of knowledge left for us. Be blessed today.

Just like a tree

Like a tree with roots, I seek to stand firm on my decisions each day.
If I wake up, I plan to get a few things done during the day. To achieve most of them means to give quality time to each task.

Each task requires a solid resolve, so I hope to do just that and more during the days allotted me. The truth is sometimes we really feel like not doing what we plan on achieving. To sit back and think that it will get itself done without my input is to hope that someone takes some food and place it in my mouth without my efforts. Well that is a lame example, but I am certain you get the picture.

A tree sways in the wind, sheds its leaves and looks dry during the season of Fall, stays internally warm during the cold, and fights to hold its greenery within for as long as it can. Trees are amazing to me. With their branches extended, supported by a firm stem, they have a certain femininity about them. Like a struggling woman in her quest to triumph over every form of struggle and adversity, she holds herself together, and still chooses to give off green leaves, as if to smile again once the pain has subsided. I want to be like the strongest tree in the forest. Even within a crowded place, she often feels alone, because she towers over the neighbors. She has roots extended beyond her visible borders, and that is what keeps her aground. Now, that is the kind of woman I want to be. Alone, or in company, I want to stand tall within my psyche, because in stature I am short. That I aspire to, not to be proud or conceited, but to be confident, strong, self-esteemed, and to embrace my phenomenal person daily.
This is not to leave out the brothers, but please allow me a moment guys.

I just have to embrace the woman in me at a time when I feel like the dryness of Fall is trying to rub me off my greenery. With that said, wish me well. Still, I hope you are planted on solid ground too like your chosen tree. Then maybe we can all sing at some time soon: “Just like a tree, planted by the waters, I shall not be moved. :)” God bless. (Though the above tree does not quite resemble the strongest tree, there is something about it that I love. It’s ability to stand firm alone. That could be another subject. Keep strong friends.)

Life Puzzles

Since I spoke of the the fact that I worked on trying to complete a picture puzzle yesterday, and shared its incompleted phase, I thought I should update you on its progress. It was perfected today, in total completion. Yay! And no, I didn’t do it myself, neither did I do most of it. Still I am happy that I assisted in its most difficult stages, and then in its easiest stage.

It made me think that, life sometimes behaves like a major puzzle. Even worst, some of us, starting with me have been like puzzels to others too. Some people have been honest enough to tell us, and others nah, they just don’t care to. Rather, they will discuss our puzzle-nature within their circles behind our backs as if thinking they are doing us a big favor. Please, if you are like me you prefer honesty than facades. Anyway, this is not the issue.

So, indeed life behaves like a major puzzle, or is it one within itself. Which ever way, it needs dedication, patience, endurance, pride in small achievements, and faith that you will endure to the end. I can assure you it took all these characteristics and some more to complete this one. In life we need no less. An additional desire to deal with difficulties head on, rather than shoving things under the carpet might also be a good way to go. As a matter of fact, to not face every piece of the puzzle is to leave some of its scattered parts lying untouched, or just lost. Sometimes in life, within our puzzleness all we need is a support system to help us pick up our shattered pieces. Well guess what, many times, we shatter our pieces to people who care absolutely nothing about seeing us back together in one solid piece. So, that can be a major emotional disaster within itself. But still, you must try to triumph.

Maybe it is not exactly one’s entire life which is a puzzle, but sometimes a certain aspect which seems to overpower and sort of dominates the pshyche of the individual. This turns them into a major fiasco, needing the help of puzzle-lovers and problem-solvers to help them.

Each of us need help to work out our puzzleness. Unfortunately, we sometimes look for that assistance in places where people don’t care to extend it. Still, first find within you the strength to recognize your puzzlement, and then seek the necessary assistance to make it through. If you do, you will find that like our fun-puzzle come perfected within a 24 hour period, your life can unfold perfectly within the yearly hours of your life; thereby, unfolding into a beautiful, stronger, positive and well composed work of God’s art.
Keep working on yourself. I am doing no less. Take it seconds by seconds, breath by breath, step by step and heartbeat by heartbeat. You can have a great and perfected completion. God bless you.

New year, New Rule

Growing up in the Caribbean, that famous expression “new year, new rule,” was a must at the start of a new year. I am certain it is still being said by people, though often for fun purposes.
Personally, I have no rule really for the new year, but I find it kind of funny, and figure, since this is my first post for 2012, I might as well use it. So, if you find no real rule in this post, forgive me.

Often another “R” word makes itself ubiquitious during a new year too – “Resolution.” Personally, if you ask me what is my resolution for 2012, I will tell you it is to not make a resolution. So in clearer terms, “My new year’s resolution is no resolution whatsoever.” Yeh, I know I am sometimes funny like that. 🙂

So, today, I woke up rather late, but made it to a place of worship, met a few familiar faces, and was happy to begin the new year on a peaceful note. The day was one of fun conversations, laughter, eating together, and the fun part – trying to complete a major puzzle with a friend. Now that was good enough for me.

As you can tell, my post is as simple as that: My new year began positively, easy-going, and relaxing. Hopefully, 2012 will unfold with me reminding myself to S.E.Y.!!! To say an eternal YES to myself mentally, thereby keeping a positive composure no matter what. No, this is not a resolution, it is a personal daily task with which I have employed myself in the latter part of 2011, and to which I seek to devote time and effort as long as I live.

Do you have a resolution, or maybe just a plan, or better yet, do you have a rule, if you feel like sharing them, that would be nice. Whatever the case, I wish you well in your life’s journey.

Be blessed today! (Disclaimer:) – it is still January 1st for me, but wordpress finds it’s Jan. 2nd. Oh well, whatever WordPress. 🙂